So now I'm frantically trying to pick up the pieces after that talk to all the parents and students about streaming stuff. I'm trying to ACEACEACE my math! Yes, I do adore and detest it so much and changed my mind about it so many times that I've lost count. However, I've made up my mind to work really hard to do well in everything (well my history still ultimately sucks D:) so as to ensure a place in the double science stream (for the sake of ARCHITECTURE)! I want to do physics, chemistry, history and lit. Well according to my logic, I shouldn't take history because I just do not have a flair for it. But I love it soooooo. Even though I only have one reason to love it that much. Which is the fact that it teaches me a lot of stuff and lets me learn from the mistakes from others' past. So that leaves me with geography to pick (for very valid and practical reasons) but I haven't really been getting grades up to my expectations. I'm in a dilemma :( Well all I can say now is I'm back on track towards the race for THAT place in my desired stream. If you're wondering: Don't you want to do triple science? The answer is no. And again, for very practical reasons which are- laziness and overall ability to cope with 9 subjects. I'm not like one of those UP there who think at the speed of lightning and have the wit of a million monkeys (who are desperate for fooood). I know I'm making weird analogies, but all I wanted to say was: I'm doing really fine, and I've found my way back to the road of competitiveness.

Maybe all it took was a question of: What do I really want to do next time and how am I going to reach that goal? That really woke me up and made me think of where I am now and how can I get from here to there.

Work has really been draining away my very much beloved sleep, but I do believe everything happens for a reason and that at the end, God wants to lead you to the road of well-being and not a road that will break you so bad. Afterall, challenges are there to make you grow and fools are there to make you realise you never want to be like them and want to be so much more.

I'm glad I finally found the time to type my whole month's summary of how I was doing so far. It made me think a little more than I was a few moments before and made me realise how precious every moment is because before you know it, you're 10 years older with wrinkles.

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Today mom's cell group came over. And they sang that lovely Christian song above. I sang along in the study room (they were outside and the door was closed so they heard no nothing ;D) and I thoroughly enjoyed singing something else besides the 3 Choir SYF songs which we've been singing since forever. It was pretty spiritual and relaxing too. Maybe cell group meetings held here aren't so bad after all, huh? (; Although the 20-strong group makes quite some noise considering that they are aunties and uncles :D refined ones though, so it reduced the burden on my ears!

Really have to thank God for all that's happened and all that's not happened to me.
TGIF and I love my God!

Love,
A very inspired-to-study-just-to-become-an-architect Yiann.